The Official Me in Me

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Okay so like what is all the to-do about Rhianna speaking out about her abusive relationship with Chris Brown for? This has been going on for years and is not a new issue, so how is her speaking out going to change anything? Let me share with you some personal stories and facts.

As a child my younger sister was abused by my mother physically and mentally, my younger brother was abused by my mother more mentally than physically, I was abused by my mother physically and mentally. And what was bad about that was she was abusive to herself more than us.

Now because of the abuse I got from her I grew up being an abuser in my teen to 30 years of life. I tried to commit suicide 2 times and I used to abuse woman myself but it wasn’t until I saw the damage I did that I checked into immediate therapy. Once again this was over 12 years ago. While in therapy I realized my source for being an abuser was from the anger I had for my mother for abusing me.

About 5 years ago I was told why or what possibly was the source for her abuse to me. I was not a child conceived out of a relationship of love or even a fling. I was the conception of a gang rape so knowing who my father is a shot in the dark because DNA testing cost too much. Now these are all true facts. In these sessions I learned that abuse comes in many other forms than just physical but we tend to push physical more.

And what’s even sadder is that some people actually like to be abused because that is the only way of life they know…being abused. I recently encountered a couple of scenarios that really blew my mind when it comes to abuse but it also had me thinking these folks were whacked out of their minds.

One encounter was with a person who was on the brink of breaking up with her lover…that’s right HER LOVER (or girlfriend since being GAY is so mainstream now) and she was doin the “I’m FREE, FUCK HER” dance both verbally and mentally. But when we got to talking about it I actually had the chance to hear both a tirade of anger, hurt, and fear. Now she may not have been physically abused by the one-time lover but she was mentally abused. And to the point that she magnetized the same kind of abusive individuals for a minute.

That’s right you can actually magnetize the same kind of stuff that you claim you want to get out of your life. So if your self esteem is jacked up, or you have been in a toxic/abusive relationship you can pull the same energies in if you don’t take a minute to address the pain. Also let’s not forget for every ACTION there is an equal or in some cases greater REACTION. So if you know the person you are in the relationship has the potential of putting your lights out…why the hell would try to piss them off to get that reaction.

We have always been a world of ACTION/REACTION. If you read the bible you will see many ACTION/REACTION stories. So this issue of physical abuse is not new.

Second encounter-Another lady (whom by the way has the prettiest eyes and smile) has been supposedly hurt by a guy. This guy has someone but she doesn’t mind and consents to deal with all that this guy is bringing to the table of drama. He all of a sudden decides one day it is better for him to no longer partake in interacting with her and she cries out he hurt her emotionally. But did he? I don’t think so. I think she thought this guy was actually going to leave his family for her and he didn’t.

She hurt herself and he just did what he did. Got the sex and whatever else came with the deal. Now I do not condone what happened between them but here is another issue of something that has been going on for years. Now all of a sudden folks want to be morally right and correct on this issue. DON’T MAKE ME LAUGH!!!! All of these politician’s stories of infidelity coming out now. And what makes it so bad is NO ONE…I REPEAT…NOT ONE person involved has said they were forced. Each party was willing to take some form of abuse from the other.

And most of them are glorified abusers…Right Mr GET A STATUE OF MYSELF IN ANOTHER COUNTRY “Bill Clinton“!!!

Another big abusive story in the press JON & KATE!!!

Now no one really knows how long the abuse in this relationship has been going on but I do believe KATE has PTSD. All of those children…all around the same age or stage in life (with the exception of 1 or 2) and need their mommy & daddy. But their individual lives have unraveld since signing the paper and allowing a cable station to exploit their lives as well as their children’s life.

The truth be told from the way all of this has turned out I would not be surprised if 3 of the children grow to be abusers of some sort…NOT WISHING THAT ON THEM…BUT THROUGH ALL THIS IS COULD HAPPEN!!! I am sick of seeing them both on TV. She crying about him taking all the money, he apologizes and in his own unscripted way tries to say “KATE I WANT YOU AND THE FAMILY BACK” but Kate got a little money-hungry gold digger in her blood right about now. So his cries for resolution fall on deaf ears.

So he decides he is gonna date Hailey Glassman. Is this the correct way to get the attention of a woman with your children and PTSD tendancies??? Is this the way to show you have moved on??? JON you “DUMB ASS“. You have basically done something that you have said you would not want your daughters to experience or have thought it. And what is funny about this is Hailey is really a little girl in all aspects of the word. Just because she is 22 does not graduate her intol adulthood.

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So see all of this Rhianna speaking out is really for who??? Is it for the recording companies who feel this would be a great tool for her to plug her new CD? Is it for the TV and Cable stations who are preparing for the winter season and want to be tops in ratings? Is her speaking out the voice that will get Barack, The Republicans, and The Democrats to go to the “KUMBAYA” table and agree this an issue the deserves immediate attention?

You chime in on this….